5 a.m. I have been awake now since 3.30. Well at least I got one hour more sleep than I did yesterday. It's not such a bad morning and the dawn chorus began at 4.20. I am now two days in to my period of uncertainty. I am finding it just a little more difficult than I thought it might turn out. In less than two weeks I will go to Nobles for my scan which will decide if my chemotherapy has been a success. It's a bit like having being tried and now the jury has gone out, and won't return for two weeks. When they do return, they will decide whether I will hang, or be set free. Let's hope I have made a good case. For now, I can only deal with the present, with what I have and what I know. I am feeling very good. I am fit and walking again. My body and mind are active.

On Wednesday, Barbara bought a new camera while I was having chemo at Nobles. It seems a strange irony that Barbara's camera will capture moments and preserve them way beyond our lifetime, whereas, a bloody camera in two weeks time will decide if or how many more moments I am to have. Well this might sound like negative talk. I am not feeling negative at all my friends. In fact I am full of optimism. If my thoughts this morning are coming over as negative, it is just my way of dealing with the situation. Once I have written my thoughts down, I have dealt with it. I feel better for doing so and I have made room in my mind and cleared my space of a little clutter.

Sometimes when I write the blog early in the morning, tiredness might influence the way I write. I never read my blog once I have written it. If I did that, I would probably never post it as I would be forever making changes and I want the blog to be representative of how I truly feel at the time of writing. To do anything else would be very unfair to any other cancer sufferers. It is also important that I try to reflect my thoughts as accurately as possible, if I don't manage to do this, then the blog becomes a complete waste of time.

Well, let me now welcome Wendy in Winchester in the south of England, who joins us as another blog reader. Wendy, the print you requested of the old mill, will be on its way to you next week.

Yesterday, I included one of Barbara's prints on the blog of the Old Mill here on the Silverburn. Two readers emailed to ask if they could obtain a copy of the print. Let me just say at this point that I didn't intend the blog to become a commercial enterprise. My book, "Who's Afraid of the Dark" is not longer available in the shops as it is now out of print. I think there might be a couple of copies left airside at the airport. However, it is available free of charge in audio form through a link on the forum site. There are also some secondhand copies available through Amazon. Thanks to Jason Roberts of Manx Radio, The CD Ellan My Chree, along with the song Ellan Vannin Remembered, is also available free of charge through a link somewhere on the forum, and anyone who would like it in CD format can obtain a CD free of charge just by emailing me. Barbara's prints are a little different. They will be available through her own website in about 4 or 5 weeks time, once Jason has got it up and running. I include another print today. This one is of Peel. This one was painted during the autumn of last year on a rough day with the wind blowing in from the west. I will include pictures from time to time mostly for our off island readers so that they might get some idea of the places of which I talk. Well I have never had a bad day out in Peel, and on this occasion, Barbara got her photo and I got my fish and chips. Unfortunately, modern technology is not yet so good, that it will allow me to attach a bag of fish and chips to the blog. However, I dare say that Bill Gates if he has ever been to Peel for fish and chips will be working on how to achieve this right now.

Well people, it is now 5.20 a.m. It is time for me to make another cup of tea and to say a huge thank you to you all. I have sat down in the office and shared my morning thoughts with you all, yes, all 839 words of them, and I now return to the bedroom to listen to some breakfast television feeling much better.

Until tomorrow then, this is Tom Glassey with News at 5.20, thinking of making my way along the Silverburn for another morning stroll.